The lead up…
Anyone who knows me knows this is unusual. I’m the person who falls asleep in a matter of seconds. Most nights, my head hits the pillow and I’m out. In fact, I went to bed early tonight. But here I am. Wide awake long after midnight while everyone else in the house is asleep. The house is quiet. The thoughts are not. For the last few days, I’ve noticed an anxiety creeping in. Not overwhelming. Not consuming. Just there. Lingering in the background. Following me throughout the day. Showing up in moments when I least expected it. The strange part was that I couldn’t quite figure out why. Nothing had changed. Nothing had happened. I couldn’t put my finger on what was causing it. But as I lay here tonight staring at the ceiling, it finally clicked. What I’ve been feeling isn’t about today. It’s about what’s ahead. The lead up. The…